Brave Enough To Be Bliss

Oh, and I will still think of you every time I eat jalapenos (I'm halfway through my second huge Sam's jar of them and order them when I go out now also) and the very last sandwich you ever shared with me you explained the importance of the pickles which has been another great food realization for me. And if you want to see another shocking thing, I never thought I could ever, ever do...check me out on Instagram October 30 when I will be posting pics of Kylee and I at a Halloween brunch where we are dressing up as Ginger Spice and Baby Spice. Costumes are ordered and I'm really looking forward to it actually. The champagne will be flowing of course, but honestly even without, I think I'm going to rock the outfit.

Safe travels and be well, GB

“I love that feeling when you talk stuff out with someone and you both become aware that neither of you were wrong. You just saw the scenario differently. Talking really should be about seeing things from their perspective, rather than the need to be right.” @subconsciousthinkers

On Friday, Oct 14, 2022, I called John which felt so much easier than it used to. I realized I was beginning to prefer to talk vs. write to him. John replied by text explaining he was out with his cousin who was in town.

JV: Can’t talk I’m out with Sal.

GB: Have a great time and tell him I said hi if he remembers me. Please tell him today I’d kick his ass in shuffleboard or pool o r whatever it was we played at The Quaff the night I met him, since I’m not scared and insecure like I was back then.

I left you a message. Got cut off of course because I now ramble as much verbally as I do in writing, but basically, I got to say what I authentically wanted to say. ❤️

Couple more things…

Even though you didn’t get to experience me, I really am great fun now. I get this kind of stuff all the time now and I’m not even trying, I’m just me. “Loved getting to visit with you! You are so authentic and wonderful! What a fun night!”

And this guy (photo I’ll send) knows what he’s talking about so follow him on Instagram, doesn’t matter if not for my benefit, I just want you to figure you out and share the wonderful you “that” you are with some lucky lady. And follow me too because I’m pretty damn special, JV.

(Author’s note: JV was always removing extra words I used and “that” was a big one for me .)

And last thing is my logo for the website I’m creating to try to get some following before the book…you’ll see where the insp iration comes from and know I’m good remembering you no matter who you are with. That’s what real agape love is, John …it doesn’t matter if you reciprocate my love for you, you simply have mine regardless. My life purpose is to share that love with everyone I can as that’s what makes life worth living. The chemistry we have shared is exciting and a high and temporarily ph ysically satisfying, but to know that we are loved simply because is a higher-level gift and that is what I have tried, sometimes not well but always desired, to give to you.

I wish you all good things.

And last thing, I hate throwing up more than most anything because it is a total lack of control, but if there were anyone I would want and trust to hold back my hair, it’d be you. ❤️

(Author’s note: When I told him I went home one time because I was afraid I was going to be sick, he had told me I didn’t have to leave, he would have held my hair back.)

JV: You are a hell of a woman! Don’t ever forget it!

GB: Thank you. Your kind words mean the world to me!

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