Brave Enough To Be Bliss

Regardless, the podcast offered the freedom I needed to feel comfortable and release any worries about writing the truths of my healing journey, which included references to sex and my spiritual journey alongside each other.

All was well for a few minutes, but then fear creeped in when it was again obvious to me that God was behind yet another connection that had significance to the book. I asked myself …

Why me? I haven’t even been that good. I’ve questioned You. I’ve been angry with You. I haven’t done all the things I was told I should do. And I sure haven’t done all the things I was told I shouldn’t do. Why…me?

Then I remembered what I thought as a child, that I would only be noticed or loved when I was a perfect little girl. But that is not how my Heavenly Father has treated me or even what He asks of me. Humans are human and we perpetuate what we do not heal within ourselves, and I keep trying to use human rationale with Divine Intervention. It simply doesn’t work. It never will. And then I ran across a screenshot I had taken from the Holy Bible app devotional on December 29, 2023. God Cares For You “One of the amazing things about the God we see in Scripture is that He cares for the outcast, the weak and the hopeless. He is a God of second chances. He loves to do His greatest work through the most unlikely people.

God could work through the most powerful and wealthy people. But, one of the ways God shows His true power is when He strengthens the weak and gives power to the powerless.

When God sent His Son to earth, Jesus came in the form of a helpless baby. When Jesus chose His twelve disciples, He chose the most unlikely group of followers. God doesn’t choose the powerful; He empowers those He chooses. This is great news for us! We may not be the best at what we do or the most influential person-but God can still use us! You may not feel like you have the right traits or talents to be used by God- and that’s okay. God can use anyone and everyone. God makes it a habit of taking our greatest weakness and greatest pains to use for His kingdom work.”

And with that, I simply said thank you for leading me to Messy Sex. I released the fear again and got back to writing.

“I must not fear. Fear is the mind -killer. Fear is the little death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain.” Frank Herbert, Dune

Resources ▪ Home | Messy Sex (angiemccarty.com) ▪ How to restore your ‘sexual confidence’ (today.com) ▪ Sexual Confidence on Tap Podcast - Official Site for Shannon Ethridge Ministries ▪ Free Resources - Official Site for Shannon Ethridge Ministries ▪ 138. Healing from Sexual Abuse within Marriage w/ Shannon Ethridge (youtube.com) ▪ Fighting Against Our Gifts (dailyom.com)

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