Brave Enough To Be Bliss

YH (inhale): WH (exhale). So a baby’s first cry, his first breath, speaks the name of God. A deep sigh calls His name – or a groan or gasp that is too heavy for mere words.

Even an atheist would speak His name, unaware that their very breath is giving constant acknowledgment to God. Likewise, a person leaves this earth with their last breath, when God’s name is no longer filling their lungs. So when I can’t utter anything else, is my cry calling out His name?

Being alive means I speak His name constantly. So, is it heard the loudest when I’m the quietest? In sadness, we breathe heavy sighs. In joy, our lungs feel almost like they will burst.

In fear we hold our breath and have to be told to breathe slowly to help us calm down. When we’re about to do something hard, we take a deep breath to find our courage. When I think about it, breathing is giving him praise. Even in the hardest moments! This is so beautiful and fills me with emotion every time I grasp the thought. God chose to give himself a name that we can’t help but speak every moment we’re alive. All of us, always, everywhere. Waking, sleeping, breathing, with the name of God on our lips.” Unknown Author

After reading this, I typed this prayer into my phone.

Dear Heavenly Father,

Thank you for being with me. Thank you for all you have given me and blessed me with. I am so sorry. I don’t know how to give up control. I am so scared. I feel like if I stop trying to control everything, I will get hurt. I feel like if I stop working and trying to hold on, I will not make it. Like I will slip into a pit of despair, and I won’t be able to get out. Like the walls will be too high and I will be stuck there never again to return. I will be in darkness too dark to ever find my way out again. But I know now you are with me, and you will not let go of my hand. When you say you’ve got me, I can actually truly count on it. Other people, humans, may let go but you don’t. Even when I feel alone, you are there and all I have to do is remember that. R emember you have my hand, and you will not let go even if I do. You’ve got me, you will not let me fall. You are the ground beneath my feet always. Even when I feel like I’m falling you’re right there beside me holding my hand. There’s nowhere, no depths that you will not be with me if only I will remember you’re holding my hand. I don’t have to work to hold on anymore because you’ve got me, not the other way around. I can rest in the comfort of your arms knowing I no longer have to work at it. I only have to relax and breathe. Feel the comfort of knowing you are with me. Always to the ends of the earth. You are my family; you are my rod and staff, and you comfort me. You are with me. You’ve got me. You are always right here holding my hand. And you will not let go. And I will not fall. You are the ground beneath my feet. I don’t need control because you’ve got it. You’ve got me and you get me. I don’t have to explain because you already know my heart. You already know my soul. And you couldn’t love me more. You want me just as I am. I’ve never been filthy in your eyes, I’ve always been white as snow, it’s only in my eyes that I retained the filth of this earth, but now I can allow you to wipe me clean as I walk with you in grace and love surrendering my control to yours. Thank you, oh Lord, for being so patient and kind. I will come back to you over and over and over again until this stubborn mind of mine can fully comprehend, and this hurt heart of mine can fully feel all the goodness you want to give me and always have. I am ready to receive all you have prepared for me, God. I am yours, do with me what you want and let it be pleasing unto you. In Jesus’ name we pray. Amen

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