Brave Enough To Be Bliss

▪ Open to possibilities This felt very bad to me, quite unsafe. Everything had to be planned out so I could always be prepared. Possibilities were unexpected and that sounded like grave danger to me. ▪ Mindfulness (staying in the moment) I really didn’t like words that required a definition after them , as it reminded me I wasn’t going to be able to do them perfectly since I didn’t even know what the word initially meant. I really preferred to stick with things I already knew how to do and was really good at, so it was clear this one was going to be a huge challenge. I was very used to the past as I referred to it often in order to beat myself up. And I was quite familiar with the future also as it’s where I spent most of my time. The future created a great deal of fear if it wasn’t all planned for, so I had to invest a lot of time there in order to avoid pain. By the present, I was already in the future. The past and future kept me very busy, I didn’t have time for the present. ▪ Taking your soul on a trip Huh? I didn’t even know what she was talking about with this one because my soul was something I really wasn’t in touch with. That felt very deep and very uncomfortable. On Sep 15, 2018, at 1:07 AM, Ginger Bliss wrote to Ginger Rothhaas: This is the place where I ’ m staying...just thinking how strange this all is. Six months ago, I didn't know what I would need, but this place looks perfect now that I'm looking at the pictures again. I thought even these massages that I'm scheduling sound perfect. Just had to share because it made me smile thinking about how it has all come together. BLUE SAGE & ARNICA DEEP TISSUE MASSAGE A powerful blend of pain-relieving arnica, relaxing lavender and healing sage are used for this therapeutic massage. Varying degrees of pressure are incorporated to target areas of discomfort and tension. A concentrated arnica salve is used to enhance muscle relief and soothe away overworked, fatigued muscles. AMETHYST AWAKENING MASSAGE The beautiful gemstone amethyst is said to have a calming quality. This soothing, full-body massage uses light to medium pressure to calm and relax the nervous system. Amethyst-infused oil is used to release tension and stress in the body and mind, inviting a peaceful mindset. The treatment concludes with a series of soothing and nurturing stillness holds to draw you into a state of deep peace and relaxation. On Saturday, September 15, 2018, 11:24:59 AM CDT, Ginger Rothhaas wrote to Ginger Bliss: This is so amazing! There is no doubt in my mind that God/the universe/higher power/whatever is aligning things for you to realize your worth. You are definitely on the right path to feeling a sense of peace, feeling whole, and finding your soul. Are you on Instagram? I want to send you a video someone posted yesterday that is so perfect for our work! On Monday, September 17, 2018, 8:37 AM, Ginger Rothhaas wrote to Ginger Bliss: Just sent it to you in Instagram... (Fucked & Doomed Mantra) It is Sam Lammot doing a meditation that is funny, yet incredibly helpful! So glad you are feeling hope. I have lots of hope for you...you are on the right path; I have no doubt! I just had to tell you thank you and let you know how I wouldn't have handled the past couple weeks nearly as effectively without your guidance and support. For the first time, I really am looking forward to this time away starting next Tuesday. Maybe I really just know I need it or maybe I now know that I will actually be able to enjoy it. I think it will be the best opportunity I have had yet to really do some good work on me...although I do realize the fact, I have managed the past few days and am still smiling shows vast improvement. Additionally, John and I were talking yesterday, and I realized after the conversation that for the first time, I didn't feel the desire to "help" him...to feel needed and worthwhile and try to make him love me. I listened, I helped him reflect on past conversations we had had and how he had overcome some things on his own (ok maybe with more of my help at that time), but I feel like I led him back to himself...and the great news was that today I saw that he had done his own work helping himself. I stayed out of his business and let him manage it himself and he didn't need me...and it felt even better to see him help himself. So, thank you for everything you've done so far to help me and to help me help myself. I do appreciate you very much and at least for a couple days now, for the first time ever that I can remember, the hatred of myself doesn't really have a hold on me and I know it's because I'm not listening to the voices and when they start to speak, I shut them down. I don't even argue with them anymore However, even with the discomfort of all these unknowns I would be working on over the next few weeks, I was beginning to think maybe this trip would turn out ok. From: Ginger Bliss To: Ginger Rothhaas Wed, Oct 3, 2018 at 11:42 PM

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