Brave Enough To Be Bliss

As luck, or perhaps some intention, would have it, I ended up sitting directly across from John. While small talk isn’t my strong suit, I was excited to be there because of him. He was very different from me, but I felt at ease around him…or at least as at ease as I felt around anyone I didn’t know well, particularly a man. I didn’t really like eating at restaurants because the types of food I would eat were very limited. While it has since been removed from the menu, at that time there was a side item that from the listing I envisioned would be a basket of various types of breads or rolls. Well, if there was any ice that needed breaking, the laughter that erupted did just that when a small plate was set down in front of me with quite literally four pieces of thin white sandwich bread. It may not sound that funny with this description, but it really did look hilarious, and we all laughed about that silly sandwich bread for years to come. I had been divorced about five years and the only man who had shown any interest in me at all had been about four years earlier. A fter meeting him for drinks a couple times, he informed me he couldn’t see me any longer because he had just found out his previous girlfriend was pregnant, and they were getting married. That was really no reflection on me that it ended before it started, but somehow, I still twisted that around in my mind as yet another example that no man could ever love me. It’s not like John had asked me out or anything, but he had started coming by my office to talk quite frequently. It felt nice thinking that a handsome, single man might actually be a little bit interested in me. And since I was friends with our boss, she was aware of my developing feelings for him and supportive of the possibility of a relationship developing between John and me.

I tried so hard not to get my hopes up, but when he would walk by and say something as simple as, “Good morning, GB,” it was impossible to keep that JV smile from appearing.

“Love is messy. Even the healthiest, deepest, truest love, is just two messy people trying to interact with each other in multiple complicated ways. If you can’t handle messy, you’re not ready for love.” J. Warren Welch

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